I always think that’s not a problem dealing with rejection as it was just part of life and we have to accept the reality and to think positive ways to overcome the miserable feeling after rejection. However, sometimes you may think that why people have the rights to choose and we have no rights to choose instead?

So I wonder, it’s not that I have no rights to choose and it’s because you want them to choose. If people have doubt, they will choose the best given two options in hand.

Alright, does that mean I am not the best if I wasn’t chosen? I felt belittle and standing down there. Then I realized, why most people fear of rejection, because they are pointing spotlight to themselves. Instead of blowing your own trumpet, blaming yourself and admitted you are little or such a loser.

Why not refrain yourself to be little but take that as an encouragement to work your best not for others but for yourself. When you attempts to love yourself more, you will eventually see the other side of the world. You have no right to get others to choose you but you have rights to choose what you want the best for yourself.

Have you ever wonder why you kept repeating the same mistake eventhough you know the consequences? Maybe I should say that it’s not why but how can the same mistake happened again. Is it because I never learned?. Perhaps, I believe that what I am doing is good and hope that I can be accepted, or I am too overly confident with my belief and neglected any details that are important to takes into consideration.

Whatever it takes, it’s just plain stupid to believe that you can control something that it’s not under your control, that’s human relationship.

I’m back again to continue my journey to be prospered in all my ways. Let’s rock the world with all the abilities I have gains and built up within the years.

The saga continue…

It’s the time of year again for another new year resolution. So, what’s there to offer me in the year 2009? Hope for nothing and get no dissapointment. Ahuh….it seems to be a good idea but bad practice. Eventually I have nothing much in mind, still the same new year resolution, better health, better relationship and better wealth. It’s common and it’s the best to have, otherwise I will be living a day to day life without purpose and may interepret as a person without balls, because I don’t have a goals to strike.

The third day of new year,  feel like getting older and what’s it like to feel older, to be more responsible to my life, to review what I want in life or searching for anything that I hope to get. Yet till now I still havent started my mission statement which has been added to my to do list ages ago. I wonder when I can start, and I should have just make it simple as it could, at least I could tell myself I have started and be more responsible.

Okay! Just start in ..

I’ve been messing my beautiful life around these few months, girl? forget it. Can’t really find one that click, if I do, either there’s just this something that doesn’t fit in. Am I choosy? HELL NO, I am simple, simple and very simple. That’s it, and finally it’s getting near to year end and what did I achieved in this unpleasant year 2008. 

Year 2008 isn’t such a good year and I’m looking forward for the best coming year of 2009, new year resolution, yes, I failed some and achieved some and everything seems to go on plan and out of plan, there’s still room for improvement. It’s good that I still have motivation to blog although I have been always lazy. I don’t know, I just lost the motivation and left somewhere, I will find it back and gained back everything that left behind.

Party, party and party till year end and that’s it. I want a healthy life, a life partner and a house by end of year 2009. Hmm……..achieveable? ~ I believe my prayer will be answered.

Woke up and glimpses blue sky, blue water and greenery island. It’s a fine day, with a good mood and when I am positive about life. I have a sudden thought to make this world a better place to stay.

Throughout life, we’ll see different people along our journey, like and dislike with different expectation from us and vice versa. It’s complicated, so I thought, why can’t we people stop making unecessary demand, blamed, excuses and hatred. It does not seem so, we’ve to admit we are living in a metropolitan cities scattered with luxury and expensive competiting material.

So I thought, is there a place to be found, that fulfill all your basic need that you can live a simple and decent life, not worrying much about material competition and chasing after luxury millions dollar expensive make ups of posh car, condo, bags, high heels, executive title, executive clubs, first class plane and expensive meals in luxury restaurant with nice ambient. 

Women are looking for successful husband who live in the most expensive banglo in luxury area, and who can afford their 5 star lifestyle. While men are chasing for their pot of gold to fulfill their needs of egoism and status quo of being successful and powerful.

So I thought, do people live in luxury with status quo only know how happy are felt? I doubt and I would rather go search for a place where it brings me the simplest stuffs in the sense that it can fulfill all my basic needs while being happy at the same time. 

What I care most is that I’m afraid that I can’t have a life long partner that could  have an ever lasting love. Can you hear that?

If only I’ve a time machine, I would rather be single up to the present moment, the old says it is better to have loved and lost then to never have love at all, and I found that it’s partially true because if you ever found someone you really love and at the end of the day, they changed and leave for better, what left was just a bitten memory. It may seem to be nice, and it doesn’t happen for someone, whom are so lucky to have someone at the corner of the world still care and think of them everyday, but what it is for me, nil, null and near impossible, I am alone. I am sunk into the deep ocean, where sunshine hardly remain in touch and what covered around me is dark and cold water. 

Living a day to day life in city with skyrocket building, dusty environment, busy street, traffic jam, and never ending work load was never beautiful. I hate the noisy-ness, its freak me out and all I wanted after a hard day work is to listen to some nice and beautiful voice that can instantly smoothen and taking always all the worry and suffering for the day. It was just a simple request, why is it so hard for me to have it. All I wanted is just a romantic and beautiful conversation with someone I love in a cosy environment.

Recently, I met a lady, she’s beautiful. Yet, I do not have gutted to fall in love with her, because due to many reasons that have stopped me to make any further steps. I’ve been very careful in positioning myself not goes overboard. Whenever things go unexpected, I’ll pull back and retreat, because I know, the infatuation and temptation or her attractiveness beautiful eye and lips are just illusion playing in my mind that I know she may not belong to me. Somewhere, deep down in my heart, I really love her, to love someone you can’t love can be more painful than heartbreak by reaping them into thousand tiny pieces or ashes.

I don’t know and I don’t really have horse sense to think about anything in this relationship, letting go or not, and what worry me most is that I can’t live the life she wanted, I can’t give the things she wanted, and I can’t seem to make her fallen deep into me same as how much I love her. While, we can’t change anyone to be like what we want, it needed to be happened naturally, love are supposed to be unconditionally and that’s what I always longing for. I never hoped for one-sided love, it’s too much a pain for me to bear, and it’s not beautiful after all.

Sleepless night and pretending tough is somewhat daft. I don’t seem to see tree dancing and flower blooming, I can’t see colour on the rainbow. I would rather take a step back and hope that I can really see the light from the end of the tunnel, I am sorry, I am sorry for her, how should I tell her, I am confused and afraid that I can’t see her again? 

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

 

 

It’s not easy, it’s not that easy, it’s not what they claims to be that easy. You may came across some internet marketing products that you will have temptation to take out your credit card to purchase it, what makes you to have such temptation? It’s all because of the powerful sales letter that caught your attention and hit what’s in your mind at the point you start reading it. No button to escape, convenience purchase buttons all over the screen and urgency technique to purchase before the offers end. 

Personally I only bought 5 ebooks before, some were just craps and some were just repeating the other techniques with additional enhancement, more or less it just copy paste all over and rephrased. However at the end of the day, you will still get a bit of knowledge what you have read.

However, if you are thinking to jump into the bandwagon of internet marketing, I would like to recommend you to start reading Fabian Tan Internet Startup Secret. It’s so true that 90% of internet startup will fail because of wrong mindset. Despite you have read every details inside the ebook, you may know why most of the internet marketing fail at startup, but if you didn’t take any action, you have actually fail in the first move. When you start your, just remind yourself to reach the target line, even if you did not achieve what you have targeted but you already win the mindset part. Practice makes perfect.

Here’s the tool you can use for free to create PDF format for you ebook. Previously, I try before several method which can use with Microsoft Office Word, but those aren’t given free. Due to the limitation for free trial version and lack of security feature. I switch to use OpenOffice which has the functionality to prevent your ebook content to be edited. You can also prevent copying of content from your ebook. If you are familiar with Microsoft Office, then will not have problem using OpenOffice, it’s basically the same.

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Do you have difficulty to download many ebooks and find it hard to locate them back in your hard drive? I have this problem before, downloaded and forgotten where the file located and can’t remember when, where and what I have downloaded. Since my hard drive already pile up with tons of ebook, to locate them required sometimes because need to open it one by one and some filename are confusing. I learn the hard way, when ever I download any ebook, I would put a text file along the file and make some notes about the content inside the ebook separated by folder. I thought this way can be efficient, Google Desktop could index and locate them fast. But this doesn’t seem to be effective, not until I came across Ebook Librarian Plus.

Ebook Librarian is an easy-to-use database to hold information on all the ebooks you download from the Internet, and, if you’re anything like me, you’ve got a bunch of them!

How the heck do the writers of these ebooks come up with filenames that give you absolutely no clue as to the contents? There must be a rule somewhere that demands an ebook be given an obscure name. I got tired of having to open ebook after ebook just to find the one I was looking for, so I wrote this program to help me.

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